Vasu Vasu

Date : February 3, 2025

Hi Vasu,

Like every day, I woke up this morning, exercised, had breakfast, and sat down at my computer. What's new today is that I watched a video on YouTube called "Law of Attraction." I learned something from it.

One thing I realized is that just like you have Dada as your mentor and support, I don't have anyone like that in my life. I used to have Srinivas as a mentor for my professional life and a good friend. But he is no longer in this world. Ajay is not ignoring me because I am asking for my own money. Yogesh is frustrated with my calls. Out of three of my closest people, one has left me, one is ignoring me, and one is refusing me. Now I don't have any friends or mentors to support me. I don't know what I'm doing or how to do it. I don't have any money in my hand. I don't understand how to move forward without someone's support. My brother has broken off our relationship. Generally, if I want to go out of my house, I need ten rupees to go anywhere. I don't know what to do. If I ask my friends about job opportunities, they say they will see, but they are not saying yes or no. I need hope. I need a job—any job. My heart is broken. I'm just thinking about you because at one time you helped me a lot and were my companion.

Everyone is saying that I should be brave and that everything will be fine, but no one is giving me the financial support I need to make things happen. I don't know what to do.

When you were with me, I had the courage knowing you were there, and I got a job. But now that you are gone, I don't have a mentor or a friend to help me with a job. I feel very lonely. I don't know how I will get a job. I don't know what your reaction to me would be.

In the Solomon Islands, the combined efforts of the islanders cursing negatively and yelling at a tree somehow damage the tree’s life energy. The result is that after about 30 days of being cursed, the tree dies and falls to the ground! Similarly, you are spreading the word that I am a bad person. If you feel happy somewhere, I am 100% wrong. For your happiness, I agree, even though I am suffering in the same situation.

Before our marriage, you were crying when my parents were looking at girls for me. In the lockdown, why did you come back? Because you love me, and you also know I love you a lot. I agree and I regret where I was wrong. I treat other women like mothers and sisters, but you totally misunderstand me. I am questioning myself: Am I really not a good person? Whom can I ask this question to? You, my father, my mother, my grandfather, my grandmother, my brother, friends, or relatives? I want to share my feelings with someone who is there in my life now. My mother—she will cry more than me. I need a tight hug, and I want to cry. I need someone to say, "Dear, I am with you for anything."