Vasu Vasu

 

Date : 15 Feb 2025

Hi Vasu,

Today is Saturday, and I missed going to the temple again. I’m wearing socks to cover my injuries. The doctor told me not to walk until my injuries heal. I’m keeping my legs on a pillow, but I’m not sure how long I need to do this. I really want to visit the temple this time.

I took my medicines after breakfast, but I didn’t eat the breakfast made by mom. I ate outside and had Puri bhaji, even though I know it’s not good for my sugar levels. I didn’t have any other option. The medicines are making my mouth taste sour, so I can’t eat properly. If I eat too much, I feel like vomiting, and everything tastes salty even if it’s not.

In the afternoon, I had Upma and salads like carrot, beetroot, and cucumber. I don’t know what’s happening to me. My whole body is shivering, and I feel cold. I vomited my lunch and am resting again. For almost a year, I haven’t been able to sleep properly. I keep having nightmares, and when I do, I say your name, Vasu. I’m scared of losing you and not being able to do anything for my mom. My brother isn’t paying attention to her either.

I’m writing this because if something happens to me, I want you to know that my love for you was always true.

I love you so much, Vasu!

I feel stuck in this unhealthy cycle of negative thoughts. I want to do something great and move forward in life, but as days pass, I’m more afraid of losing my love and my confidence.

Today was a day full of sickness and weakness.

I hope your day was much better than mine.