Vasu Vasu

Date : 10 Feb 2025

Hi Vasu,  

Whenever you say "No" to me, my body reacts in ways I can't control. I start shivering, my hands get sweaty, and a deep fear takes over me. My heart feels heavy, and I find it hard to breathe. My mind becomes restless, and I can't focus on anything. Headaches and tiredness follow me everywhere.  

For the past year, I haven’t been able to sleep properly. Nights are long, and my mind is filled with worries. I haven’t found a job, and every failure makes me feel smaller. The fear of losing you is always there, like a shadow I can’t escape. Day by day, I feel like I’m losing myself. My confidence is slipping away, and I don’t know how to stop it.  

I try to keep myself busy with other things, to distract myself from these feelings. But no matter what I do, my thoughts always come back to you. You’re always there, in my mind, in my heart. I don’t know how to move forward, but I know I can’t keep living like this.  

I don’t know how much longer I can keep going like this. I just need you to understand how much your words, your actions, your presence or absence affect me. You’re my anchor, and without you, I feel like I’m drifting further and further away from shore.  

I love you Vasu. 

Please, Vasu, don’t let me drown.