Vasanti Vasu

  25 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, Tomorrow is Shivaratri. Mom is cleaning everything, washing, and preparing for fasting. Anyway, since we both are sugar patients, we won’t eat too much, but we will eat some fruits. Vasu, what are you doing? Will you keep fasting? Whether you fast or not, God will always bless you and help you succeed in your goals. I feel like I want to see you. I love you, Vasu. Take care.

  24 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, What are you doing? Everything in my life has changed. I am looking for a job. I have stopped eating sugar. Now, I check every food item under a microscope to see its sugar and carb content. I avoid oily food, refined wheat flour (maida), white rice, and fruits with high sugar. I take sugar tablets before eating. My diet includes green leafy vegetables, chapati, jowar roti, upma, oats,  star fruit, carrot, beet, curd, and salt. Today, I want to share my diet plan with you. Early in the morning, I take a tablet. Then, I chew bitter neem leaves and drink boiled guava leaf water. After that, I exercise and take a bath. For breakfast, I eat upma or poha. I avoid idli, dosa, and maida puri. After breakfast, I take another tablet. I drink milk without sugar. I also apply ointment on my injured foot. Five minutes before lunch, I take a sugar tablet. During lunch, I take more tablets. I eat fruits that are low in sugar or bitter in taste. In the evening, I take ...

  23 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, Today is Sunday. There was an IND vs PAK cricket match. Did you watch it? Pakistan’s batting was good, but India played incredibly well in the end. For me, it wasn’t a close match, but cheering for India was an active pleasure because I support them. Right now, I am unable to eat my favorite food because of my high sugar levels. Obviously, money is also a concern for me. This month, my medical expenses have already been high, and we still owe rent. I’m feeling alone and don’t understand what to do. Take care, Vasu.

  22 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, After many days, I started my warm-up again. I used to do it before, but because of my injury, the doctor told me not to do any warm-ups. They said it might make the injury worse or cause an infection. Now, even though my injury isn’t fully healed, I’ve started my warm-ups again. The only problem is that I’m not sleeping well, no matter how hard I try. I need some guidance on how to work out my career or future plans. In Siricilla, people don’t give proper advice on how to build a career. Their thoughts are stuck in old traditions, and they don’t provide the right solutions. Their negative thoughts often make me feel meaningless and lower my confidence. My friends are busy, and I feel like I’m just a way for them to pass time. The internet has many options, but I’m confused about whether the path I’m choosing is right or wrong. Some online work requires subscriptions, which I have to pay for. If I come to Mumbai, I don’t know what kind of job I’ll get, but I’...

21 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, Today, I’m not doing much, just feeling good. I have applied for some jobs and am also preparing for other career options. If I get a job at a startup company, that would be great. Right now, there are very few jobs in the market. I hope you’re having a good day today. Maybe you’re close to reaching your year-end target. Congratulations in advance! Love you, Vasu. Take care. Good night.

  20th February 2025 Hi Vasu, Today, I am thinking about what kind of business I can start. However, I do not want to do it in Sircilla. Before starting a business, I need to find a job first. Today, nothing special happened. Because of these strong tablets (medicine), I am not able to focus. They make me feel sleepy and also upset my stomach. Vasu, are you okay? How are you doing now? I love you, Vasu. Take care of yourself.

  19th February 2025 Hi Vasu, Hi Vasu, Today, I woke up at around 10 a.m. I was feeling anxious and depressed. I also had a slight fever all night. My eyes are red, and I couldn’t sleep properly. I was breathing heavily, and it felt like I had a mild stroke. My stomach is also upset. I don’t know what’s happening to me. I don’t want to tell my mom because if I do, she will worry about me. Today is 19th February, which is Shivaji Jayanti and also Sai’s son’s birthday. Sai didn’t call me for his son’s birthday celebration. Earlier, I told him that if he wants to invite me, he should call our mom. If mom is available, then no separate invitation is needed for me. But Sai and his wife don’t want mom to be present. You are the best person to understand every situation. So why don’t you understand me properly? Before marriage, you cried and insisted on getting married. I already told you that I don’t have any financial background or property. Why did you hold onto me, and why did you thr...

  18 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, My list of medicines has increased. Today, I’m worried about my injury because I feel it might be infected. I’ve been applying for jobs, but I haven’t received any calls from consultants yet. I’m also trying to find accommodation in Mumbai, but it’s like heaven it’s never easy to get. I’m sure the universe will definitely show me the way. I love you, Vasu. Take care.

  17 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, Today, I got my blood and urine test reports for sugar levels. I also took the doctor’s advice for treating my leg injuries. For this, I woke up at 7 o’clock, even though I didn’t sleep properly. I did a fasting blood test and another test after having breakfast. My sugar levels have come down, but not by much from 246 to 204. The doctor prescribed some medicine, but I didn’t buy it because I don’t have enough money. Instead, I only bought oranges worth Rs. 40. One of my friends, Satish, met me today. He also has sugar issues and follows a diet plan. He suggested I take some special grains daily, but unfortunately, he doesn’t know I can’t afford them. Spending time with him made me feel a little better. I know when you’re around, I feel calm. Now, I’m talking to you through this blog. I understand what I’ve lost, and I regret it. Please forgive me I can’t control my heart and mind when I think about you. I want to meet you and stay with you. My only goal is o...

  16 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu,   Today is Sunday. If I had woken up early, I would have made breakfast and tea for you. But now… These days, there are many weddings in the city, but we don’t receive any invitations. After Papa passed away, no one recognizes Mom and me anymore. Even Sai doesn’t acknowledge me. In our native place, the people who knew us don’t recognize us anymore, which is okay, but even my own brother doesn’t recognize us now.   Anyway, today Mom prepared traditional rituals Pochamma. I know you don’t eat much only one chapati in the day and one chapati at night, with some mixture, onion, and tomato. God knows how you are managing your food. I don’t understand what you eat or who prepares it for you.   I’ve been asking friends for money, but they aren’t picking up my calls. Day by day, I’m just worrying and fearing that I’m not doing anything. When you were with me, I had some opportunities, becouse of you presence in my life but now I have nothing. ...

  Date : 15 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, Today is Saturday, and I missed going to the temple again. I’m wearing socks to cover my injuries. The doctor told me not to walk until my injuries heal. I’m keeping my legs on a pillow, but I’m not sure how long I need to do this. I really want to visit the temple this time. I took my medicines after breakfast, but I didn’t eat the breakfast made by mom. I ate outside and had Puri bhaji, even though I know it’s not good for my sugar levels. I didn’t have any other option. The medicines are making my mouth taste sour, so I can’t eat properly. If I eat too much, I feel like vomiting, and everything tastes salty even if it’s not. In the afternoon, I had Upma and salads like carrot, beetroot, and cucumber. I don’t know what’s happening to me. My whole body is shivering, and I feel cold. I vomited my lunch and am resting again. For almost a year, I haven’t been able to sleep properly. I keep having nightmares, and when I do, I say your name, Vasu. I’...

  13 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, I’m thinking about the early days of our relationship when we used to kiss a lot. I remember how we would kiss each other in so many different places, especially in movie theaters. It was such a special and romantic time for us. We used to meet often in Goregaon, both before and after we got married. Those moments were so precious, and we had such a wonderful time together. Even though you are now a boss at your company and have an important role, to me, you will always be just my Vasu the person I love deeply. Today is Kiss Day, and I want to wish you a very Happy Kiss Day! I love you, Vasu, and I hope you have a beautiful day. Happy Kiss Day, Vasu!

  12 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, I alwasys know that I realized I don’t have many close or good friends in my life. Over time, I’ve met many people, and I thought some of them were close to me. For example, I thought Ravi was a good friend. Srinivas was there when I shared about my job struggles. Yogesh seemed like someone who could understand my situation, and Ajay was the one who would take me out to meet his friends for some fun times. But after thinking about it, I realized that the only true and close friend I have is you, Vasu. No matter what my situation is whether it’s good or bad you always support and admire me. You’re my hero. I just want to apologize if I ever took you for granted, and I want you to know how much I value you. I want you to stay in my life forever. Happy Hug Day, Vasu! Take care.

  11 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu,   These days, I’m not able to sleep properly. I’m feeling restless and stressed. To calm myself, I’m taking some medicine (tablets) and trying to meditate. I’ve been applying for many jobs, but most of them are not related to my skills or interests. I’ve also faced a lot of rejections, which is disappointing.   But I want you to know that I’m not giving up. I promise you, I will keep trying and do something good for us. I believe things will get better soon.   Happy Promise Day Vasu !

  Date : 10 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu, Last night was so hard for me. I had a mild attack, and it stayed with me the whole night. I couldn’t sleep at all. My heart felt so heavy, like it was carrying a huge weight, and there was pain too. I tried to distract myself, to think of something else, but my mind and heart just wouldn’t listen. They were stuck in that dark place. My head was aching badly, adding to the misery. Even without sleep, I had to go to the hospital early in the morning for my blood and urine tests. I did the pre-test, waited for two hours, and then did the post-test. The reports went straight to the doctor. The good news is that the reports are slowly coming back to normal, which is a relief. But my forefoot injury… it’s still there, and it’s going to take time to heal. So, it’s the same routine again today no sleep, just lying down with my legs on a pillow, trying to rest. It feels like I’m stuck in a loop, and it’s so frustrating. I didn’t tell anyone about the a...

Date : 10 Feb 2025 Hi Vasu,   Whenever you say "No" to me, my body reacts in ways I can't control. I start shivering, my hands get sweaty, and a deep fear takes over me. My heart feels heavy, and I find it hard to breathe. My mind becomes restless, and I can't focus on anything. Headaches and tiredness follow me everywhere.   For the past year, I haven’t been able to sleep properly. Nights are long, and my mind is filled with worries. I haven’t found a job, and every failure makes me feel smaller. The fear of losing you is always there, like a shadow I can’t escape. Day by day, I feel like I’m losing myself. My confidence is slipping away, and I don’t know how to stop it.   I try to keep myself busy with other things, to distract myself from these feelings. But no matter what I do, my thoughts always come back to you. You’re always there, in my mind, in my heart. I don’t know how to move forward, but I know I can’t keep living like this.   I don’t...

February 9, 2025 Hi Vasu, I was surprised to get your call today. Thank you for the ₹5,000, but I returned it. I used to think I had every right to accept your help when we were together. Now, I don't feel I deserve it. I am sorry for disconnecting your call. I'm sharing my feelings in this blog, not asking for your help. I didn't want to answer your call because I knew what you would say. I was right. You don't want to come back. That's your choice. I still believe you're the only person for me, my soulmate..15 years of our relationship is not infactualtion feelings. I know I'm currently unemployed and have nothing. But I will find a job or do something to earn money. I'll do my best. You might not believe me, you may laugh on my words, but I will succeed.  Your absence in my life unbearable to me. Happy Chocolate Day, Vasu! Since I'm diabetic, sugar is like poison to me.

 February 8, 2025 Hi Vasu, Today is the fourth day I've been confined to bed. I'm very sorry that I couldn't visit the Hanuman temple today (Saturday). I am sorry Hanumanji. I will go on Tuesday. The food for sugar patients is very boring—no taste, bitter, and generally unappetizing. Before eating anything, I check online to see the sugar content and whether it's suitable for diabetics. It seems 95% of the food contains sugar, even if it's as little as 0.5%. I'm trying to avoid high-sugar foods and, of course, moderate my intake of those with moderate sugar levels. Even chapati contains sugar. Mom is giving me upma and "gatka"  (Telangana sugar patients regional dish), which she says helps reduce blood sugar. I'll finish my five-day course of medication on Sunday and then check my sugar levels again. I'll also check on my foot infection to see how much it has healed. I feel some swelling, but I want the damaged area to heal quickly. I'm t...

 

Date : February 6, 2025 Hi Vasu, Lying in bed all day makes my whole body feel sluggish, and I'm not sleeping well at night. I have to continue this for four more days. It's necessary to slow down blood circulation to my feet and control my sugar level. Staying in bed all day is not easy. I'm eating green vegetables and bitter-tasting food, and taking my medicine three times a day. My regular job search activities have slowed down because of my condition. Some friends visited me at home to see how I was doing. I don't know if you've had dinner. You don't eat on time, and even when you do, I'm sure you have no more than one chapati. I can't sit for too long. My legs swell up if I do.

 February 5, 2025 Hi Vasu, Today I woke up at 7 a.m. and went to give blood and urine samples for tests. Ravi Jindam took care of me and consulted the doctor. We arrived at 7:30 a.m., and the blood test was done at 10 a.m. We received the report at 11 a.m., and the doctor consulted with me at the same time. Finally, the results showed that I have high sugar and an infection in my forefoot. The doctor prescribed a five-day course of medicines and complete bed rest—meaning I have to stay in bed for five days. I was shocked by this. The doctor explained that I need to complete the course to get my sugar level back to normal; otherwise, the forefoot infection will spread. At that time, I didn’t have money to pay, so Ravi Jindam paid the bill, and then Mom returned the money to him. Sai (my brother) only visited me at the hospital and was also helpless. I contacted a few friends. I don’t want to bother all of them; I just wanted to inform them. I hope your year-end sales target has star...

February 4, 2025 Dear Vasu, Today I woke up with a fever. My feet are swollen, and it doesn't seem to be healing quickly. You also experienced something similar when you were learning to ride the Scooty Pep at Model Town Colony Lane, although your swelling wasn't as severe as mine. I went to the clinic, and they took blood and urine tests. They found my sugar level to be high and referred me to an MD physiologist for further tests at a hospital. They recommended a one-day hospital stay due to the high level of infection. However, we left, as I wanted a second opinion on the results. Another reason was that we don't have the money for treatment and tests at that hospital. I'm confused and worried. We have to go back to the hospital tomorrow. Life feels like it's toying with me. For almost a year, I've been dealing with similar, recurring health problems. That's all for today. I'm just sharing my feelings with you, not looking for anything else, and c...